Haha, finally i decided to update. After Mr.Nick suggested i do so. It had been a really long time since I've updated. Hmm....well, I'll just talk about somethings that i wish to do or I'm about to do. As for the inspirational entries, I'll write them when I'm feeling like it. Haha.
Alright to start of, I'll be working at Ban Leong for the up coming COMEX show. Yes finally i got a job. Anyway, won't be posted at the sales side, so don't come looking for me at the sales side...I'm posted to the logistics side...yeap...logistics...never mind, at least there's something to do and i get paid for it. Wee...
If you do really need to buy stuff from Ban Leong, give me a call, I'll see what i can do for you.
The reason being why I'm working, is that I'm desperate to get my camera!!! I want to get it as soon as possible and start snapping. Want my skills to be upgraded to 70%. Currently I'm only 50%+ professional. Oh man, but the camera costs tons of money!!!
If i could just get a sponsor. Haha. Well hope i can persuade mom into sponsoring me, then I'll pay her back slowly. Haha. Oh well...just have to keep trying.
Got to study more for my upcoming test. Till then.
GMAN
Friday, August 15, 2008
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
I Came Back To My Throne
It has been weeks since i ever wrote an entry. School has started and I've gotten back my results. Well, it was pretty alright. However still kind of upset, that i could have done better. I studied so hard, yet it always ends up like this. I really wonder why.
Today, i got back my VI lab quiz. For once, there's something to cheer about. Something i had been waiting for a very long time. When i saw the 2 digits on my paper, it was heaven, i thought, i got to be kidding myself. Since when have i got that kind of score. Not since primary school, when that score was so common on all my subjects that i took. For once i told myself, at least this semester isn't too bad. I won't rejoice yet. I'll wait for it all to end then I'll rejoice. It's still not over yet. Though the marks contribute 15%, the game is still not over. The sides can always turn over. Will continue to work hard. I will prevail against all the biasness the teachers can give against me. Doesn't matter. I'll work my best. Even if I'm a loser.
Got a couple of ambitions now. Trying to save up for my Nikon D60 camera. Maybe, by next year, mid year i should be able to have it. Nikon D60 SLR camera and a camera dry cabinet. Great, then i would be totally be able to stand on my own. My camera would serve to feed me and clothe me. That being my camera and i can be my own sole live hood for extra income/pocket money.
Initially wanted to get the Canon 450D SLR, but it proves to be too expensive and certain features that i don't really like or need. I would like to experiment with a good camera and then when I'm totally professional, i would change to a very high end camera. Say around 5 years after i get my D60. For now, I'm around semi- 3/4 professional. I just need more experience on a DSLR. Tried analog DSLR's before!
Nikon D60 DSLR
Currently, trying to make a transaction with LEGO, I've been waiting and hunting a train set, and finally found it. It's kind of out of stock, but if i can secure the deal, i don't mind waiting. Another set back to the savings, but everything is worthwhile. If i don't take the chance, It'll be gone.
Well, thats about it. Till then.
GMAN
Pictures: Courtesy of Google
Today, i got back my VI lab quiz. For once, there's something to cheer about. Something i had been waiting for a very long time. When i saw the 2 digits on my paper, it was heaven, i thought, i got to be kidding myself. Since when have i got that kind of score. Not since primary school, when that score was so common on all my subjects that i took. For once i told myself, at least this semester isn't too bad. I won't rejoice yet. I'll wait for it all to end then I'll rejoice. It's still not over yet. Though the marks contribute 15%, the game is still not over. The sides can always turn over. Will continue to work hard. I will prevail against all the biasness the teachers can give against me. Doesn't matter. I'll work my best. Even if I'm a loser.
Got a couple of ambitions now. Trying to save up for my Nikon D60 camera. Maybe, by next year, mid year i should be able to have it. Nikon D60 SLR camera and a camera dry cabinet. Great, then i would be totally be able to stand on my own. My camera would serve to feed me and clothe me. That being my camera and i can be my own sole live hood for extra income/pocket money.
Initially wanted to get the Canon 450D SLR, but it proves to be too expensive and certain features that i don't really like or need. I would like to experiment with a good camera and then when I'm totally professional, i would change to a very high end camera. Say around 5 years after i get my D60. For now, I'm around semi- 3/4 professional. I just need more experience on a DSLR. Tried analog DSLR's before!
Nikon D60 DSLRCurrently, trying to make a transaction with LEGO, I've been waiting and hunting a train set, and finally found it. It's kind of out of stock, but if i can secure the deal, i don't mind waiting. Another set back to the savings, but everything is worthwhile. If i don't take the chance, It'll be gone.
Well, thats about it. Till then.
GMAN
Pictures: Courtesy of Google
Friday, June 6, 2008
Reason Why?
Why i want to get that camera? It's because i love photography and love to take nice and good pictures. I feel that pictures can tell everything. Pictures are memories that can last forever. That speaking of, i might make a new photo blog soon. So stay tuned to it.
GMAN
Pictures: Courtesy of Google
Jobless
The holidays have started. Well, it's only 2 weeks though. Wanted to find some work and make some money, so that i can buy my canon EOS 450d. However, there's just no employer who wants to employ me. I really feel sad. I thought i could work in the upcoming I.T show, but well, none for me. I managed to find one, but until today that guy has yet to confirm with his boss for an interview. One great boss. If you cannot confirm something, why make the person wait for you. Because of this incident, my schedule is all different. I wasted 4 days.
Canon EOS 450. The camera i wish to buy
Wanted to go for a seminar too, then again, i have driving lessons which i have to cater to. Why in the world drive? It just destroys the environment. Not that I'll be able to afford a car with today's car prices as well as fuel prices. Nothing i can decide, my dad decided this for me. So I'm going to get it done and over. It's really a pain in the arse.
So much so for desperate attempts to get a job. I guess it will take another year or so to save up $1400. All i could say, that is there is a way of getting a job, but only that it just needs recommendation to get you that job. No one would recommend me, because i have no qualifications. Nothing to prove that I'm up to the job, when actually i am. I've done so many things. If people don't give a chance no one can improve. Even a graduate can't find a job. All they ask for is experience. If you don't give him a job, how in the world can a fresh graduate get experience. If every employer says the same thing, none of the graduates can get experience. It's just being very selfish and not willing to take a calculated risk. He/she might just break or make your company. It's potential waiting to be discovered. How much can the graduate do? He/she can source for jobs within his/her ability, but if they don't want them, what can they do.
I'm really sad and angry with the way, the employers behave on recruiting people. For another million years these people will never change their mindsets. Look at how open the overseas people are. These people just want to make money and not care about the others.
No point of me rambling about it anyway. The exams were pretty ok, but i guess I'm going to get lousy grades or even fail. I think the teachers don't like me. But hey, doesn't matter. I will just do what i do the best. That is to work hard and give my best.
Was speaking to my dad about a potential business scheme. I thought of doing some car grooming services. The money made is good, but it requires sheer man power, which i have only to a average amount.
Really feel sad. Then again, nothing can be done.
Till then
GMAN
Pictures: Courtesy of Google
Canon EOS 450. The camera i wish to buy
Wanted to go for a seminar too, then again, i have driving lessons which i have to cater to. Why in the world drive? It just destroys the environment. Not that I'll be able to afford a car with today's car prices as well as fuel prices. Nothing i can decide, my dad decided this for me. So I'm going to get it done and over. It's really a pain in the arse.
So much so for desperate attempts to get a job. I guess it will take another year or so to save up $1400. All i could say, that is there is a way of getting a job, but only that it just needs recommendation to get you that job. No one would recommend me, because i have no qualifications. Nothing to prove that I'm up to the job, when actually i am. I've done so many things. If people don't give a chance no one can improve. Even a graduate can't find a job. All they ask for is experience. If you don't give him a job, how in the world can a fresh graduate get experience. If every employer says the same thing, none of the graduates can get experience. It's just being very selfish and not willing to take a calculated risk. He/she might just break or make your company. It's potential waiting to be discovered. How much can the graduate do? He/she can source for jobs within his/her ability, but if they don't want them, what can they do.
I'm really sad and angry with the way, the employers behave on recruiting people. For another million years these people will never change their mindsets. Look at how open the overseas people are. These people just want to make money and not care about the others.
No point of me rambling about it anyway. The exams were pretty ok, but i guess I'm going to get lousy grades or even fail. I think the teachers don't like me. But hey, doesn't matter. I will just do what i do the best. That is to work hard and give my best.
Was speaking to my dad about a potential business scheme. I thought of doing some car grooming services. The money made is good, but it requires sheer man power, which i have only to a average amount.
Really feel sad. Then again, nothing can be done.
Till then
GMAN
Pictures: Courtesy of Google
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Stop & Stare
Well, it's been a long week. Had not updated in ages. Not that there was the need to update as no one reads it anyway.
Love is in the air i guess. Unfortunately i guess it doesn't work for everyone. Does it? I really feel sad for my friend. I guess we got to give and take. Don't we? If you like someone, it doesn't unnecessarily mean that person would like you or has to like you. Love cannot be forced, neither be desperate. There's not point getting a girlfriend just because you don't have one. If you really like the person, go for it. If it doesn't work out, just too bad. Nothing can be done. Maybe that person might just like you the next time. Give some time. Time can do wonders. It can heal, it can fix many things, as well as destroy them. Time is essential to everything.
Actually there's nothing called time. I would prefer to call it evolution, expansion, development. Time is quantum space. When we move something from a different place to another, it's changing time. Time was created to make life easier to function. A particular thing of today wouldn't have been at the same place a century ago. Travel back and you will realize that where you are is different, but actually you are at the same place. Only the surrounding has changed, different prospects have shifted else where or destroyed and replaced. Sounds complex, but true indeed.
Well, however time affects everyone, i guess it doesn't affect me. To be able to see what comes before it is a gift. I manage time well, but sometimes you feel so tired and sad that you fail to do anything. I live in a delusional world. It's like playing a movie of yourself in your head, before the real thing happens.
I still feel the empty void inside. No one to hug, no one to kiss, no one to caress or take care. Sometimes i feel that my dreams are better then reality. Certain aspects will come true, the others will fade away.
Well, last week when i was going back home, this little girl and her mom stood next to me on the bus. The bus was pretty crowded. There was once a point the bus jerked bad. Everyone grabbed the poles tightly. The little girl could barely reach the poles. She grabbed my hand instead. I let her do so. Even the little girl had some trust in me, that i wouldn't let her down.
I felt happy. Having a little child hold your hand is like joy. A joy that one will not experience if you were a parent. I like children very much. Some day wish to have my own. I'm not a pedophile though. I'm not seeking sexual satisfaction from children. I'm looking for a satisfaction of a different kind. To raise a child, to see her grow and become someone better then i am. To see your legacy continue. To become a legend in their hearts. That is ultimate satisfaction. Extreme happiness. The road may be rough, but the path taken is a wise choice. Reach the end and you will see the light of the horizon.
However i guess i can only see it through my eyes. The world is how you wish it to be. For me, it is how i wish it not to be. How much it could be better. Without selfish thoughts. A better place, where everyone helps each other. No one just goes about minding their own business. A principle i preach everyday, is that even if you can't help, never harm anyone. Even if you are the subject of denial or rejection. Never harm them. Protect the innocent. Save the weak. Fight for justice. Fight through the pain.
GMAN
Picture: Courtesy of Google
Friday, May 9, 2008
Felt Lonely
It has been some time since i blogged out an entry. Well, recently, i felt the effects of being lonely again. Felt really miserable and useless. Kind of in fact felt like a loser. Well, I'm still one though. Then again i see so many beautiful girls/ladies have a nice relationship and friendship with so many lucky males. Not that I'm jealous, but i feel I'll never get to experience such feelings.
Felt happy for my friend. He has feelings for a girl in my class. She's a new comer. All the best friend!! You know who you are.
Well, trying to keep myself busy this semester. I've been more active in school activities. Have been attending peer tutoring sessions. That's right, peer tutoring it is. Only that I'm not the tutee, I'm the tutor! Haha.
I've got a friend from china whom I'm helping to brush her English up. Might be the first time and person to teach English in peer tutoring sessions. My English language isn't good either. Just trying my best to impart some skills to people in need.
I also met some arrogant people during the peer tutoring sessions, who wanted to show off their marks rather then to give quality teaching. Whats the point, even if you got 100 marks for a subject, yet do not know what in the world you are teaching to a student in need. I dislike such people. Just makes me want to work harder and beat these people.
Well, this is becoming a long entry. I'm trying to squeeze every bit of information and events into this entry. I'm not going for my immersion programme either. Don't feel like and, i don't think i can survive there for 6 weeks. Maybe the next time. For now i need to work on my GPA. It isn't the greatest.
Called in IBM for my friend and arranged an appointment to get his laptop fixed. Apparently, he's too afraid to demand for his right of way. So i helped him out this time. We need the laptop in school for many different purposes. This shows everyone is hooked to the laptop, with out it, everything to do with school would be a mess. I really dread such situations. Maybe i might just get a back up laptop some time soon.
Going to a big event in my faculty this may. It's big, but the job is just to usher some graduates to their seats. But it is kind of a big event. Basically, i'm trying to chalk up CCA points.
I guess this would be all, till then next time.
GMAN
Felt happy for my friend. He has feelings for a girl in my class. She's a new comer. All the best friend!! You know who you are.
Well, trying to keep myself busy this semester. I've been more active in school activities. Have been attending peer tutoring sessions. That's right, peer tutoring it is. Only that I'm not the tutee, I'm the tutor! Haha.
I've got a friend from china whom I'm helping to brush her English up. Might be the first time and person to teach English in peer tutoring sessions. My English language isn't good either. Just trying my best to impart some skills to people in need.
I also met some arrogant people during the peer tutoring sessions, who wanted to show off their marks rather then to give quality teaching. Whats the point, even if you got 100 marks for a subject, yet do not know what in the world you are teaching to a student in need. I dislike such people. Just makes me want to work harder and beat these people.
Well, this is becoming a long entry. I'm trying to squeeze every bit of information and events into this entry. I'm not going for my immersion programme either. Don't feel like and, i don't think i can survive there for 6 weeks. Maybe the next time. For now i need to work on my GPA. It isn't the greatest.
Called in IBM for my friend and arranged an appointment to get his laptop fixed. Apparently, he's too afraid to demand for his right of way. So i helped him out this time. We need the laptop in school for many different purposes. This shows everyone is hooked to the laptop, with out it, everything to do with school would be a mess. I really dread such situations. Maybe i might just get a back up laptop some time soon.
Going to a big event in my faculty this may. It's big, but the job is just to usher some graduates to their seats. But it is kind of a big event. Basically, i'm trying to chalk up CCA points.
I guess this would be all, till then next time.
GMAN
Monday, April 14, 2008
School's In
Well, school starts today. So no more of sitting and lazing around doing nothing. I'm kind of broke right now, so got to rekindle saving modes back. Well, yet to go to school. Lesson's start in the afternoon for Monday, so I'll be off to school later than usual Monday mornings.
First lesson, would be Japanese. Hope all goes well. Feel kind of lethargic to leave home, after spending so much time at home. Got to study hard and make the same improvement i did last semester. Hope i can do well. Wonder if the modules would be fun. I do hope so. It can be tough, but if it's stimulating to the brain and fun, it'll be a breeze for me.
Well, thats about it then.
GMAN
First lesson, would be Japanese. Hope all goes well. Feel kind of lethargic to leave home, after spending so much time at home. Got to study hard and make the same improvement i did last semester. Hope i can do well. Wonder if the modules would be fun. I do hope so. It can be tough, but if it's stimulating to the brain and fun, it'll be a breeze for me.
Well, thats about it then.
GMAN
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